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I "WANT" food, but I "NEED" money (Day 2)

Nowadays the action of eating has not only the purpose of fulfilling a biological necessity to be able to exist in this world. There's also the "I want" manifestation towards food wherein human beings have to make a choice and when one has a choice or a decision to make it's where the real representation of the necessity of eating goes directly into an inner conflict of "today I WANT pizza", "hum…well, tomorrow I WANT burgers", etc. misunderstanding or probably unaware that they have turned the "I NEED" into an "I WANT".

When one has realized that we are within a system where the only vehicle towards getting the things I WANT is making money, money becomes and has become an "I NEED".

Therefore:

People NEED money in order to manipulate their "I WANT" (and make/believe/perceive it as a real "necessity").

And vice versa:

People WANT money in order to manipulate their "I NEED". (and make/believe/perceive it as a real "necessity").

Now, both concepts "I WANT" and "I NEED" are polarized. Why? Because both of them are linked with free choice and self- interest, being manipulated towards supporting self-dishonesty with the abuse of a couple of words. 

The question would be: What happens if I NEED to eat and I NEED money? 

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to utter the words I NEED when I am actually expressing an I WANT.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to manipulate my expressions in a self-interested manner.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to use the words I NEED when I really WANTED something.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to create the necessity of something I have defined as such to exist within and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to support the Mind Consciousness Field when expressing myself as a "victim" that needs what I WANT.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to really experience frustration when I haven't gotten access to the things that I WANTED.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to define myself as a person that needs what I WANT.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to become blind when I am not getting the things I WANT until I get them in order to feel "happy".

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to define happiness as achieving the things I WANT that I have turned into a necessity.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to abuse of free choice when I have to choose among many things I WANT that I consider as a necessity.

When and as I see myself uttering the words "I NEED", I stop and breathe. I realize that my participation in the manipulative/self-abusive/self-dishonest character inhibits me from seeing the actual existence we, human beings have created/supported.

I commit myself to every time I catch myself expressing my "I WANT" as "I NEED" to stop and breathe and analyze in self-honesty if they are a real necessity or is it just that I am manipulating my programming as an organic robot, in order to deprogram and direct myself towards what is best for all, as all, as one, as equal.

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