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The Mind Does NOT See Real Love (Day 8)

I would like to share an experience I had today during my dad's birthday.

I got home and my family had started eating the cake. As usual, I arrived a little bit late.

I went to my room to check my e-mail and stuff and then I went downstairs again to spend some time with my beings. 

When I finished eating, I saw that there were dirty dishes, so I took the time to wash them all up, because I did not want my dad to do it, because he was in the kitchen as well, and I thought "he has to enjoy his birthday, I'm going do the washing up, so he can just enjoy without being worried".

While I was doing the washing up my dad came next to me and hit the faucet handle a bit down. I immediately remembered the old times when I was trying to do something, but mom or dad helped me and  I used to think "they don't leave me do things on my own. They want me to do what they want", reacting negatively. But that did not happen today. 

Within this process I have learned that one allows the mind to react, instead of seeing the points in which one can be more effective. 

So, I realized that I was wasting too much water, so I continued doing it the way my dad did. I finished without reacting, although I experienced a positive feeling due to my simple realization.

I would like to conclude saying that there are parents that tend to react with anger sometimes, because they want to teach their kids when they perceive that their children are not doing something effectively/efficiently or that they have defined as "wrong". But one has to understand that it is the mind loving the idea of something "right" or  "positive". And when one has realized that point, you will not react feeding the mind, but you will be able to see the message beyond the person's character/reaction in order to support us.

You don't feel love. The mind does, because love is physical. Love is actions in common sense, giving to others as I would like to receive without creating "positive" expectations that remain in polarity equations.

What my dad did today with his lesson in common sense was love and if I would have allowed myself to participate in the mind system I wouldn't have seen the love action, because I would have reacted with ego, feeling inferior and judging myself. 

My mind wouldn't have perceived the action of love because it happened here in the physical wherein thoughts have nothing to do.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to react negatively when I perceive that someone is telling me what to do.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to perceive that when someone is telling how to be more efficient that means that I am useless/inferior.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to let my ego react with its role of superiority when someone told me how to be more efficient with myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to try to make my ego and sense of "superiority" compensate that feeling of inferiority, reacting and creating friction instead of understanding.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to activate past memories when experiencing similar events when someone tells me how to be more efficient with myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to let those past memories direct my present experience, reacting negatively due to the past experience that has nothing to do with the present.

When and as I see myself reacting with anger and feeling inferior when someone is telling me how to be more efficient, I stop and breathe. I realize that in reacting negatively I am not going to be able to see the message beyond the person's reaction, in order to consider the points he/she is saying so as to analyze them in self-honesty.

I commit myself to stop the thoughts, judgments, memories, feelings of inferiority and ego reactions when I am experiencing the presence of someone telling me how to be more efficient with myself. Thus, I will be able to see the points in which I can be more efficient, especially with water, because I usually allow myself to waste lots of it when I am taking a shower, brushing my teeth, and doing the washing up.


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