miércoles, 11 de junio de 2014

My Facebook Persona (Day 36)

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to try to keep a specific image of myself in order to present it to other beings and be accepted or defined under a "positive" idea.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to experience embarrassment even when thinking of the idea of doing the self-forgiveness about this.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to physically react with an emotion of embarrassment when thinking of the idea of doing the self-forgiveness about this specific point and get blushed after picturing other beings reading this self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to get angry when I realized that after I uploaded a picture of me and then a video about how the mind works, I suddenly noticed that people liked my picture more instead of the "supportive" video. That's why I thought "what's wrong with people? Do they give more importance/attention to a picture than to a supportive video/information about the mind everybody has?".

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to desire to get attention/likes from the things I post on Facebook.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to desire to erase all my pictures on Facebook in order stop hiding behind a specific persona and wanting people to only pay attention to what I define as "important".

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to judge myself when thinking, "I am someone that can support other beings with everything I do, but I am not doing anything. I am just posting pictures and by the time I want to do something "supportive", nobody pays attention to it".

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to depend on how I interpret people's reactions to "feel good", to "feel accepted".

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to not stand alone as just me and focusing on my own individual process to start changing my-self and just being locked down the idea/perception/thought/belief that I have to make people change with only presenting/sharing information that are only words/information that I sometimes haven't even lived.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to only move after experiencing thoughts, feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to feel curiosity about people if they saw/watched what I have posted, because that would mean an "approval" to me, like a "keep going"/"you're doing fine"/"you're not crazy"/"you're not a dork".

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to require other beings' approval in order to move myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear what other beings may think of me, feeding that pattern/system with more and more thoughts and then react with feelings/emotions that make me an abusive slave.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to let my mind control my-self.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to react to my pre-programmed mind and forgetting that I am not my mind.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to not be here in every moment and every breath as who I am; one and equal with life. 

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to not support/assist myself unconditionally.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to not see/realize/understand that I only have me and that I have to stand alone with me and love myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear what other beings might think that I am kind of "depressed" for doing self-forgiveness and mentioning "I have to love/support/assist myself". 

When and as I see myself requiring other being's approval and judging myself and other people based on their reaction to what I post on Facebook, I stop and breathe. I realize that my participation in those thoughts, judgments, emotions and feelings only make me experience negative emotions and the desire of saying "fuck everyone!", creating distraction within my process and being stuck while waiting for that so called approval I am seeking for before continuing.

I commit myself to make sure I stop and breathe when I am going to express myself on the Internet and in person.

I commit myself to accept myself as just me and stand alone assisting/supporting/loving myself through writing down and let go everything of the mind that is not I.

I commit myself to stop my participation in self-judgment every time I do something and expecting others to manifest towards myself.

I commit myself to stop and breathe when I catch myself waiting for any sort of approval, because in doing so, I wouldn't be supporting/assisting/loving myself. In this, I also commit myself to be opened to any sort of observation people may express towards myself, but without expecting it as an approval.


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