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Why Don't You Reply to Me on Facebook! (Day 42)

I was chatting with a person on Facebook earlier. Then I went out and when I came back and turned my laptop on again, this person said: I don't like when my messages are left as "seen".

I didn't understand at first, so I asked "why are you saying that?" and this person said: Because I had typed something and you left it as "Seen".

Then, the previous part of the conversation appeared and I realized that there was a moment in which I went downstairs and my laptop had lost the internet connection, so when this person typed, the message didn't appear/show up with a Red Sign as a "Notification" to look at it and reply.

Now - I have heard among my students at school that to be left as "Seen" in a Facebook "conversation" is something "humiliating" and therefore, you MUST feel bad/ignored/rejected.

These kinds of situations feed and fuck up more the (fucked up) mind, because you are just paying attention to the reaction due to the only point you are considering, which is a pre-programmed and mainstream way of defining a "seen message" under a negative energetic charge as impotence/frustration, without considering that the person you were chatting with might be doing many other things without even having the intention to ignore you or make you feel bad.

It's interesting to see how kids/teenagers pre-program/condition themselves about how they must "feel" within simple scenarios wherein someone could not reply, because they think/believe/perceive that they were apparently"ignored" and not taken in consideration = nobody loves me/nobody cares about me/I am not special/nobody accepts me/I am boring. Especially when they are chatting with a person that they like/feel attracted to.

I realize that we, human beings are conditioned/pre-programmed about how we must feel/(re) act/think, for instance if/when your girlfriend cheats on you, you think/believe that you are "inferior", because your girlfriend preferred another person instead of you, therefore it is "normal" to feel worthless/useless and then react negatively towards your (ex) girlfriend and her new boyfriend that she preferred rather than you, because we have seen this being done by other people and even in movies/soap operas.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to emotionally react with thoughts/backchats/mind scenarios when someone has seen my messages on Facebook and hasn't replied or he/she is taking too long.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to picture within my mind that the person that is not replying my "seen messages" defines me as someone worthless/useless/boring.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to think/believe/perceive that when someone does not reply to my "seen messages" on Facebook that means that I am worthless/useless/boring.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to not see/realize and understand that there are many possibilities and probabilities about why the person I am chatting with is not replying/answering and instead of considering that, I rather focus only on my emotional reactions as if what I think/believe/perceive within my mind is the absolute/only truth of the events.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to trust my thoughts/backchats when thinking/believing/perceiving that the person I am chatting with on Facebook does not want to talk to me because he/she supposedly defines me as useless/worthless/boring.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to take it personal  - due to my thoughts/backchats/feelings/emotions - when a person I am chatting with does not answer/reply.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to remain within my mind as thoughts/backchats/mind scenarios/emotions even when the person then/finally replies.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to pre-program/condition myself about how I must feel in certain situations/events based on how other people feel/have felt within similar situations/events, only repeating the pattern/system and thinking/believing/perceiving that it's absolutely "normal"/"right".

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to adapt/shape myself according to how I must feel within specific situations/events due to what I have observed in movies/soap operas during my whole life.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to define what it's seen in movies/soap operas as the truth.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to define what is told by other human beings  - when they experience/have experienced a similar situation/event - as "right"/"normal".

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to (ab) use the verbal expression "if everybody does/feels it that way, it's because it's correct/right/normal" just accepting the pre-programmed reactions/behavior/patterns/characters without investigating them in self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to hide behind the expression "if everybody does/feels it that way, it's because it's correct/right/normal".

When and as I see myself emotionally reacting to a "seen message" on Facebook Chat, I stop and breathe. I realize that there might be many reasons why the person I am chatting with has not replied/answered yet and that I am only focusing on how I feel, immediately reacting with a pre-programmed/conditioned/polarized pattern/behavior/persona.

I commit myself to stop the emotional reactions when facing a "seen message" on Facebook, because the only thing that I am doing is feeding my mind system and supporting the fucked up system/existence that exists/has existed in humanity for thousands of years.

I commit myself to stop and breathe if/when I catch myself negatively/emotionally reacting towards a "seen message" on Facebook in order to stop my participation within my mind system as thoughts/backchats, feelings, emotions and mind scenarios.


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