This is the continuation of my previous post with regards to the word Ignorance. Now, I am going to continue applying the Deconstruction process through Self-Forgiveness.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to investigate what I require to know when I am going to buy/do something for the first time.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that through not investigating, I am giving my power to the system, because I am just acting as a secondary character - a follower - who does not dare to lead/direct his own actions through a previous investigation.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to be the main actor through investigating when I have to buy/do something for the first time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust others when I think “it doesn’t matter if I am not well informed, because the people there must be able to help me”, and in doing so, I am acting like an uninformed follower/secondary actor who is living in separation; delegating responsibility.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in separation and act based on the belief that other people will help me, living the word “direction” through the hope/trust I place in other human beings that I don’t even know yet, but that I think that they must be able to help me, because that’s their job; helping customers.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that when I define myself either as an Innocent or as a Guilty, I am using free choice in self-interest to only see what affects me the least in order to remain positive (innocent) using my own beliefs as a reason to not change and remain as the same uninformed being who does not dare to lead his own actions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming guilty, because that would involve the experience of remorse as an apparent self-honest action, without seeing, realizing and understanding that when I act upon guilt, it’s the energy which leads, not me as one and equal with the physical, because energy moves between polarity, from negative to positive and vice versa, therefore using the feeling of remorse/guilt to move myself is not a self-honest starting point, it’s still the manifestation/expression of a follower who is not well informed about his/her own mind system that refuses to see reality and change.
When and as I see myself defining me as Innocent when something went out of expected, I stop and breathe. I realize that in defining myself as an innocent inhibits me from seeing beyond my beliefs so as to identify the aspects wherein I am not directing myself effectively using a clear self-honest starting point.
I commit myself to stop and breathe when I perceive that I am innocent, in order to be able to see beyond my self-created definition and see wherein I haven’t been self-honest in my participation and then be able to expand myself within those points that I wasn’t able to see before because of my own self-definition that didn’t let me see reality.
When and as I see myself defining me as Guilty when something went out of expected, I stop and breathe. I realize that in defining myself as Guilty only makes me act upon remorse and what then directs/leads my actions is the mind that wants to switch from the negative to the positive energy, which is not a self-honest starting point as the physical; as all as One.
I commit myself to stop and breathe when I am experiencing remorse after something went wrong, so as to bring myself back here, stop my participation within the mind and make a self-honest decision led by who I am as the physical, therefore a decision that's best for me and best for all.