lunes, 31 de agosto de 2015

Part III: Masturbation & Porn (Day 110)


This is part three. Continuing with my previous posts: Masturbation & Porn (Day 108) and Part II: Masturbation & Porn (Day 109).

Now I would like to walk some self-forgiveness statements in relation to the beliefs / ideas that are collectively / individually constructed around Masturbation as the misunderstood concept of “self-expression” when making it dependent on Porn.

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that it is impossible to masturbate without watching porn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach myself to the belief / idea that one cannot masturbate without watching porn and use that axiomatic premise as an excuse to remain in self-manipulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use a criterion based on frequency in order to create the excuse that I do not require to change, because I am not apparently addicted to mixing porn with masturbation, without realizing that it does not matter how often you do it, what it matters is how you perpetuate the pattern as every single moment. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that when one masturbates through watching porn is an act of free choice, without realizing that that belief / idea was inserted within the mind system through interacting with society as a collective programmed pattern.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I have been programmed / conditioned through “following the mass” when thinking / believing “if everybody does it, that’s the way it is”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how the porn industry has become the source from where human beings are learning about “sexual education”, wherein the movies show how apparently the sexual intercourse should be and then, as a consequence, we have people trying to achieve the same with their partners, basically duplicating / imitating instead of exploring sex as self-expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that porn actresses / actors are living a dream that came true, without realizing that many of them are abused and forced to do stuff against their will.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that every time one presses play on a porn video, one is supporting abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the abuse we as humanity collectively support / create because one is only focused on self-interest; based on how “good” it feels, without realizing that every time one is feeling positive, there’s someone out there feeling negative through experiencing the consequences = polarity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the porn industry will use the amount of plays every time we play a porn video, in order to generate more and more videos related those “most watched” categories and thus, earn more money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how well inserted / installed is pornography in our minds, because even though one does not use porn to masturbate, the porn as images will start popping up within our minds = one creating a relationship with the mind / memories instead of real / physical self-expression here as breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that real sexual self-expression through masturbation has nothing to do with images / pictures / memories related ex partners, etc, because those visual aids exist within and as the mind, not here as the physical.

Self-Commitment Statements

When and as I see myself accessing to porn to "express" myself sexually through masturbation, I stop and breathe. I see, realize and understand that every play is a +1 for abuse and that sexual self-expression has nothing to do with the programmed / conditioned idea / belief based on images, because real sexual self-expression is here, as breath, as the physical.

I commit myself to continue exploring myself within this point in order to step by step deprogram / deconstruct myself from the patterns that have humanity enslaved like zombies just following / wanting the “positive” without realizing the consequences we create.

When and as I see myself going into images / memories when expressing myself sexually through masturbation, I stop and breathe. I see, realize and understand that the images were programmed / installed / inserted within my mind through attaching myself to the ideas / beliefs collectively constructed that I have come to believe are part of what real sexual self-expression is.

I commit myself to stop and breathe when having images / memories popping up within my mind when expressing myself sexually through masturbation in order to bring myself back here to the physical, become aware of my present moment and thus, stop my participation within the mind , become self-directive and be a +1 for change.

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