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Emotional Interpretations (Day 139)


So, here I am continuing with my previous post. Now I - through self forgiveness - will take responsibility for how I interpreted my friend’s words and behavior last week.

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that X wanted to manipulate me through his expression by judging him as though he approached me from an energetic experience in order to touch my feelings so I could approve/accept/validate his perspective.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that interpretation is created within oneself when one reacts to the words/behavior that another person is expressing through shifting into one’s mind and connecting the words/behavior to the information and data that is stored there from the past, which creates separation, because in that moment one is not seeing/hearing the other person on an equal level in order to really understand their point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that emotional interpretations are caused by fear. The fear of not wanting to face what one is seeing/hearing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that through interpretation I was blaming X as though he was trying to manipulate me to feel what he was feeling, in order to approve and validate his perspective, without realizing that the only manipulation that was taking place in that moment was my own, because I couldn’t even see how fast the mind channelled X’s words/behaviour into an emotional reaction and I just simply ended up thinking, believing and perceiving that my interpretation was absolutely accurate, without being able to see/hear X from an equal level beyond my own mind consciousness system's limitations to really understand the point he wanted to share

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the emotional approach from the past in relation to my communication with X was created within myself, but instead of taking responsibility for that through a self-honest assessment where I would introspect/investigate what happened within myself in that moment in order to correct myself, I immediately blamed X as though he was responsible for creating that emotional reaction within myself through the words and the content he was sharing with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not pierce the veil of interpretation so as to see beyond the mind’s limitations and thus, to face the fear of what is being shared/said by other people in my external world so I can transcend such points and be able to establish an effective communication/understanding from an equal level.

Self-Corrective Statements

When and as I see myself interpreting that I am being manipulated or influenced by another person’s behavior or emotional experiences because emotions/feelings start building up within myself while listening to them, I stop and breathe. I realize that the emotions are being activated within and from myself, therefore, the other person is not to blame.

I commit myself to stop and breathe when emotions/feelings start building up within myself when listening to another person’s words in order to make sure I am physically here to stop my mind from jumping in faster than my awareness.

When and as I see myself interpreting that I am being manipulated by another person and then I end up blaming them as though they were trying to make me feel/sense the same experience they are possessed by, I stop and breathe. I realize that I am channelling their words and behavior into an emotional interpretation which is indicating that there are certain points that I am fearing to face.


I commit myself to stop and breathe when I am participating in an emotional interpretation so as to bring myself back here and be able to self-honestly introspect/investigate what is it that that I am refusing to face so I can transcend it and thus, enhance my communication skills with the people in my external world from an equal level. 

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