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Reactions While Watching a Soccer Match (Day 144)

Last Sunday I was watching a soccer match where the Chilean team was playing a final match vs Argentina in order to win a cup.

To be honest I have never been into sports or watching sports, but as for many people a soccer match = meeting up, I have ended up watching the soccer matches through meeting up in such moments with my friends.

The people I usually meet to watch the soccer matches are very loud. It’s like they take it too serious and they are very involved with the match and everything around it.
Anyways, the match started and I realized I was quite stable within myself. I was like “wow I feel nothing within myself, they are just playing a soccer match”, this is it.

Suddenly, as long as I started paying more attention to the match and no goals were happening, I started reacting within myself. I was like “Come on guys! No, no, no why did you do that! You had the chance there and you lost it. Oh no, why?”, while within myself I was experiencing a mixture of anxiety, anger, joy, …

Judging Someone I Don't Know (Day 143)

Last night I met some friends that I have been going out with lately. I usually pick them up outside of a store and then we hang out in my car. By the time I got there, I called one of them to tell him that I was already there. They were behind the store so it only took them a few seconds to approach me.

When I saw them walking into me, I realized there were too much people. In my car, 5 people can sit comfortably, so it’s always me and 4 of them. I realized they were 5. I started looking at them one by one while they were coming into me in order to see who was the ‘extra person’. I saw a guy I had never seen before and I noticed how I started judging him.

I judged him within myself because based on his body language, he seemed to be rude, like these people who tend to be aggressive and speak loud and things like that. When we said hi, I noticed he was staring at me, so the first thing I thought was “I bet he is judging me because I have a car. He must be thinking that I look like a r…

Part II: Quitting Alcohol (Day 142)

It’s been almost two months since I decided to quit alcohol. Within this post I would like to write about something that happened after I wrote my previous post.
I was in a friend's house and suddenly one of them arrives and says “What’s going on with you? Why are you writing those things in your facebook wall about alcohol? You will end up posting Christian songs/videos”. This was expressed in a sort of joke voice tonality.
Then, another friend said “Oh yes, why are you writing those things, you ex drunk? I was about to post something in your wall but I finally decided not to do it”.
In that moment I felt attacked and I smiled and laughed like automatically embodying a sort of ‘funny personality’, but within myself I realized that I was embarrassed, because I felt exposed and it was something that I didn’t see coming at all.
I said nothing and just laughed while wanting them to stop. If I remember correctly, the only thing I said was “If I am to share a Christian song in my facebook…

Quitting Alcohol (Day 141)

It’s been a month or so since I decided to quit drinking alcohol. The reason why I decided to quit is because since I got unemployed I started drinking more frequently. Actually, alcohol was/is always present among my group of friends. It’s kind of ‘natural’ to go out, meet up and have some beers, wine or whatever. So, I started drinking more because alcohol was just there available for me and it became a habit.

The first time I tried alcohol was when I was 17-18, but I would drink a few sips from a beer bottle or to make toasts in new year’s. Then, when I started going to college I began to drink a bit more. I got drunk a couple of times during 2004-2005. After that, I ‘learned my lesson’ so to speak; meaning, I would drink, but I had my limit; no more than 2-3 glasses, mainly because my stomach could not handle too much liquid in it, so when I drank more than 3 glasses, I felt like throwing up because my stomach was full - and that has always been horrible to me, because I don’t li…