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Why Do You Look at The Speck in Your Brother's Eye, But Fail to Notice The Beam in Your Own Eye? (Day 149)

Within this post I am going to place myself in an individual’s shoes in order to apply self-forgiveness on the patterns I have observed exist within themselves that are creating conflict within their lives and the lives of others when it comes to communication and the dynamics in relationships.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for the way I feel within myself, without realizing that the anger, hate, and frustration I experience are indicating that there are certain points in my world/life that I am not addressing in self-honesty, that’s why it is much easier to abdicate responsibility and project it onto others instead of facing it myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how the way I express myself within communication when I am angry through my voice tonality, body language and facial gestures make the way I express myself infertile, because what I create is friction instead of understand…

Being Drunk v/s Being Sober in a Club (Day 147)

Last weekend I went to a club in this new city I am currently living in. I usually go to clubs when there are bands playing live.That’s most of the times my starting point in relation to going to such places; watching and listening to new bands playing live.

So, once I have seen the bands and listened to their music it’s like I am already ‘done’ and I can go home because 'I already did what I had planned'. It is different when I have been to such places without having a clear starting point, because when I have done that in the past, it felt like being in a contant state of ‘expecting something to happen’, which leads to anxiety, that’s why you drink and smoke more – as though that physical action of directing your hand towards your mouth in a repetitive way - creating a pattern - was going to solve your inner state or give you a purpose.  
Anyways, I went to this club with a new friend and I was completely clean; no alcohol and no drugs in my body. The only thing I drank was w…

Moving to a New City (Day 146)

Last week I moved to a different city to start a new job as a teacher after being unemployed for a bit more than 1 year. It came unexpected and all of a sudden I had to move myself efficiently in order to get everything done, including bus tickets and paper stuff that are required to work in a school.
The last day I stayed in my previous city, one of my friends stayed with me throughout the process of getting things done and I noticed how I tended to become possessed by an emotional reaction of sadness, while thinking “this dude has always been here for me in very important moments, but I won’t see him or the rest of the guys in a long time again”.
It was like approaching that last day in my previous city as a sort of farewell, plus keeping in mind that I for the first time was going to work in a public school, so a whole new experience where I would have to adapt myself to a new environment, new colleagues, new students, different city, etc.

Anyways, I got here and so far I have felt …