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Part II: When You See Only What You Want to See (Day 163)


This is the continuation of my previous post. Here I go with the Self-Forgiveness statements as well as the Self-Corrective Statements.


Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get distracted by thoughts and emotions due to certain events that have taken place in my life when listening to information being shared, without realizing that in doing so, I am creating misinterpretations when I get back to paying attention again, because I am not listening to the whole timeline of what is being shared.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get used to be absorbed by the emotional energy that I have attached to my problems and instead of paying attention to what is being shared, I go into imaginations in relation to my problems which create more and more emotional energy and I get more and more distracted from physical reality. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop my participation in the emotional energy when I am being absorbed by it, because even though I can write it down and sort it out, I just rather go into feeling/positive energy by thinking other stuff that make me feel better, instead of standing up, leaving all the energy aside and bring forward my awareness/expression as a being in the presence of myself as who I decide to be in that moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not know who I am in such situations where I am being absorbed by emotional energy, because I just let the emotional energy to define me where my expression is non existent. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the consequences that being distracted due to participating in my mind can be, because I can create a whole alternate reality which is a mixture of what is within my mind and the information being shared in my present moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am an objective person, without realizing that in saying that, I am already creating a belief/idea about myself - and in doing so; in defining myself as the mind, I am limiting self instead of expanding, because I am only seeing myself as an idea that exists in a quantum ‘reality’ and not as physical and practical action.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into my mind when people are sharing information with me, because I got used to do that when I have issues that concerns me, so it has become a pattern where in a quantum moment, my being is channelled into my mind system and even my body language changes, because I sit in a comfortable position - almost like ready to sleep - and then, one of my hands immediately go to my hair and I start playing with it and I take a passive stance instead of pushing myself to participate more and paying attention so I can provide some feedback and deal with what is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the more I go into this pattern, the less I am able to see reality, because what I am doing when ‘I believe what I want to believe’ is that I am thinking instead of seeing - and thinking is only mind programming, which is a biased version of reality that inhibits me from being objective.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do unto others as I would have them done unto me, because when I share myself, I like to be paid attention and hearing/reading some feedbacks, which is something that I am unable to do when going into my mind, because I am more distracted in building energy through imaginations while people are speaking, instead of paying attention to what is going on here in physical reality.

Self-Commitment Statements

When and as I see myself getting distracted because I go into my mind and build energy for imaginations based on problems I am facing, I stop and breathe. I realize that in doing that, I am only existing in a mind reality instead of being here, which leads into me not paying attention to what’s going on in my world, for instance, people sharing interesting insights and wanting some feedback from me, which is unacceptable, because in doing that I am not living the principle of give as you would like to receive.

I commit myself to explore and re-define the word Presence in order to find and apply solutions for the next time I see myself facing a similar situation, because I have realized that in such moments I don’t know who I am and I am only defined by the mind.

When and as I see myself going into positive energy when facing problems that create negative emotions within myself, I stop and breathe. I realize that in doing so, I am only believing that I am fine and that everything will be fixed, instead of me directing myself and creating solutions that are real, concrete and practical. 


I commit myself to stop myself and breathe once I am going into the other side of the polarity equation, in order for me to sound self-forgiveness and take note on the points that I would like to explore through self-writing and thus, find a real solution to my problems.

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