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Skeletons in the Closet [Day 167]

Some days ago I was told something that had been hidden from me because this person thought that if I was to find out, consequences were going to manifest, such as making the decision to no longer continue our relationship; fear of loss I suppose and fear of facing consequences.

During the last couple of days I have been seeing this event from different perspectives rather than just reacting out of emotional energy, because I have learned that when we immediately react, you are not able to see things clearly and you may say or do things that you will eventually regret.

In terms of what’s going on inside me, it is interesting, because I thought I would experience myself more energetically charged, I mean, a sort of intense and depressed mind state for instance.

This doesn’t mean that I don’t catch myself experiencing emotions in moments where everything’s going well. But, in such moments - where I trip over Pain and Disappointment - I remind myself that no matter what the other person d…

Part II: Stuck in Emotional Energy [Day 166]

This is a continuation from my previous post. I was reading it earlier and also listened to an interview on Eqafe called ‘When stopping thoughts is not enough’, which pretty much describes how I have been experiencing myself, where the self-forgiveness statements I have written down and even sounded became repetitive and more as a response to the mind state I was experiencing than a real solution.

I mentioned in my previous post that I was having problems with identifying the energies involved and it was because I was stopping my thoughts on the surface level only, but not going beyond; meaning, exploring my subconscious mind by identifying/naming the energies.

I also noticed that I was not able to identify the emotional energy, because I was busy following thoughts that then lead into imaginations, therefore my mind was creating imaginations through me following thoughts, while forgetting about my physical body, but only feeling trapped in the energy that was possessing me so to spe…